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june 20th - july 20th '24

without you i've been grey; today july 20 made strange house rmx draft 1; & applied for little hcc job

trying to think in that college application personal narrative mindset; trying to not think about you

hard; terrifying seeing those notifications about you; a short fright; fight or flight genuinely

trying to discord and rocket league the pain away; idk if it works that well

it's only been one month; don't know if i even have the energy to music about you; i'm so enclosed

august 23 '24

finally finished stickverse remixes ep; first physical release as well; proud to see my project's completion materially

people root for me; though i cant shake this feeling im not "cool" esoteric digital enough; almost like when rappers feel corny

but idk; now im j thinking of the many different ways i could go now that this project's complete

i know i have a bunch of other shit in the works; some projs requiring less fleshing out than others

we'll see how i balance things out now that college started again; been equally fun and anxietyinducing